my menses normally is 28 daes cycle. on the 28daes, at most 29 daes my menses surely come. and i alwaes mark when is the 1st dae of my menses so i can aga aga calculate and prepare. fight wif hubby on the 11nov09 and after tat jiu never contact animore. my menses supposed to come on the 20nov08, waited and waited. and even bring my pad around wif me everiwhere! never come. kanchiong liaos. then me and 'her' alwaes on the phone talking non stop. then i tell 'her' my menses never come todae how! then she sae aiyas, dun worriew, nothin one. if i worriew then i jus go buy 1 kit test. in my heart im tinkin wun so suay 1 lar. he going court liaos then i pregnant meh. so i sae nevermind, dun need test. waste my money. mayb tomorrow come. 'she' even tell me, is like tat 1. when u prepare for it to come alreadi it wun come. dun bring ur pad out tomorrow lar! sure come. LOL

so next dae, i still bring my pad. cannt imagine the stain on my panties and still haf to work the whole dae =x so i bring and all morning i keep niam to 'her' menses never come never come never come. i tink 'she' also BTH so ask me to go and buy kit test lar. so lunch time i walk to guardian and went to the public toilet test, still talking on the phone wif her. after dipping the test kit and so on, i wait awhile, pick up the test kit and see. 1 line. heng i tell myself! and i tell 'her' 1 line leh. while laughing happily, i saw another line coming up. immediately start to curse and swear. the 2nd line i very very light but can be seen.

1st ting tat come to my mind is wad i should do. mum jus pass awae, hubby leave me and going to be sentenced. im all alone. how am i going to break the news to my family members. how are my family members going to tink. how am i going to cope. all the how how how. asking myself why so suay bcos for the 2yrs plus of our relationship, i realli wanted our child. but he sae he was not prepared. and this time, he left, he's goin to be sentenced but im pregnant! joke sia -.-

alot of thoughts comes to my mind, but im quite sure im not going to abort the child. i jus dun wan it to happen and cant let it happen again. so in the end i kept everiting to myself and onli let a few of my frens and jackson know and start to plan how to let my family members know. finally break the news to my dad thru letter when i go for holidae and he never said much, jus tell me if i wan to gif birth, jus go ahead. and later on, few weeks later my dad told my sis. she's more concern on how im going to cope esp money wise. after ive told her my plan she's quite supportive also. colleagues also know abt my pregnancy bcos ask jackson to tell them, in fact, i find it quite hard to tell them as they all know hubby.

but im glad everiting turn out well and now everione is being supportive, caring and gif gd advises. enjoying my pregnant~ counting down to the day i see u baby! :D